In the Midst of Change

I could write a lot tonight.  I could write several blog posts.  I think I could easily fill a weeks' worth of blogging just tonight.

I could write an entire post on how I don't want to leave home.  I could write about how I have enjoyed the past two weeks of being at home, of how I have laughed until I'm in tears, enjoyed my mom's home cooked food, and sat on the porch swing talking and sharing, watching thunderstorms and watching sunrises.  I could tell stories of the time I've spent with both family and friends and how blessed I have been these two very short weeks at home.

I could write an entire post on piano and how working with my teacher here has sparked a small flame in me again - a passion for music and the piano has grown a little, something that hasn't happened in over a year. I could write about how the pain is still present, but how my heart is more willing and engaged in piano than it has been in quite some time.  I could tell you about these lessons and about how nervous I am that being at camp for so long will extinguish some of my current excitement for piano.

I could write a whole post on how much I am looking forward to camp: how eager I am to arrive in Oklahoma and kick off the summer, to meet up with my fellow staffers and dear friends, to start the weeks of learning, laughter, love, tears and growth.  How thrilled I am to be working with teen girls and to learn to love them and share with them and listen to them.

I have a post-worth of how many things I should accomplish before I leave early Sunday morning (and I do mean early).  About the adventure that packing for 8 weeks can be and how trying to plan so far in advance just doesn't always work.  About how writing devotions for my small groups is both a challenge and a delight.  About how trying to remember everything I need (that I just know I am going to forget) is just not my strong point.

I could write about "Think", by John Piper and how even through just four short chapters of this book, I've already been challenged.  How, even through deep and drawn-out thought processes, Piper manages to challenge the way that I think and what I believe.

I could write about how God is answering prayers, clearly and obviously in so many ways.  How He as shown me that He is listening and sovereign.  How He has taught me how feeble my prayers are and how He is still working and moving despite my failures.

There's so much on my mind.  God has blessed me in so many ways this past week and my heart is full.  I wish I could share with you the depth of my emotions, the things I have learned about the goodness of God and the joy that I have in resting in His sovereignty.

But for now, I will simply leave you with this verse, which is a comfort to my soul: "But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid."  John 14: 26-27